current state of mind: introspective
I'm not making a joke
You know me I take everything so
seriously
If we wait for the time till all
souls get it right
Then at least I know there'll be
no nuclear annihilation in my life time
I'm still not right
~ “Galileo” by The Indigo Girls
Copernicus’s birthday was the other day. He is the reason that we know
the Universe doesn't revolve around us. Instead, we revolve around the Sun
which revolves around the center of the Milky Way which revolves around
something else and so on. If you need an illustration, go to any elementary
school science fair. Someone is bound to have a Styrofoam rendition of our
solar system. I made mine in third grade. I did it myself. My parents cut the
wire hangers for me; but that was the extent of their “help”. I wanted to be an
astronomer. For my 8th birthday, MiMadre bought me “Our Universe”; a
pictorial book from National Geographic. It is still on my Top Ten Gifts ever
received list.
What I have learned over the years is that we have very little control
over our paths through the Universe. Gravitational pull is far stronger than
human beings. Often it is intense emotional experiences which allow us to alter
our paths. While we can fight against the inevitable for a short while,
eventually, the explosion burns itself out and we are pulled back into our
designated orbits.
I have been thinking about this theory with gusto. With the 7000 ton meteor
fireball rocketing across the Russian sky and a potential upcoming asteroid collision,
I cannot help but wonder why these things are careening out of their natural
orbits and into our path. Is that how life is? I mean, the whole “Man makes plans,
the Universe laughs” scenario seems to be pretty damn insightful. I am a
planner. When a plan goes as intended, I am able to behave with logic and pragmatism.
When a plan goes awry, holy moly, I feel as if the Universe has slapped me on the
back of the head (think Gibbs and Tony in NCIS).
There doesn't seem to be a viable solution. I have contingency plans
for my contingency plans. Yet, there are still blizzards, impromptu meetings,
lost keys, demagnetized ‘magnetic’ strips, obligations (both good and bad), and
pie crust promises. For the most part, I have followed a lifestyle which
promotes “no implicit expectations”. I have found that my temperament is far
more agreeable than before. Still, I have my moments.
I hope you understand.
PERSONAL NOTE: All 4 seasons
have been covered. Let’s do book covers next.
CONFIDENTIAL NOTE: You’ll
soon be given a choice.
